I haven't blogged much since last October. My blog has been pretty bare. Now, I could blame that on the fact that I've been working everyday. I could also dismiss it as just me being lazy. However, I'm beginning to feel that my lack of urgency to blog stems from the urgency to get up and do something with my life. All throughout college, this blog has served as a means for me to vent my frustrations, dream out loud, make plans, share my innermost thoughts, feelings, and experiences, tell stories, and basically just figure out who I am as a friend, daughter, sister, girlfriend, and person. It's been a journal/diary/planner/post-it/blueprint. It was a huge part of me in HS and college... and it still is. But I feel like life after college has encouraged me to stop thinking (or in this case, writing) and start doing.

I'd like to think that my priorities have shifted a bit. Rather than living out my day for the sake of writing about it, I'm now experiencing life without the pressing need to blog about every single detail. I'm not saying that I plan on abandoning my blog altogether. I just needed to take a break and adjust to my work schedule and life.

I still can't believe that I'm (only) 24 years old (already). That statement changes according to who I talk to. My coworkers all think I'm still a baby. Friends who are still in college think I'm ancient. But I think that I'm the right age. I would agree with both sets of opinions. I may still be young enough to grab drinks during happy hour after work with friends or hit up lounges/bars on the weekend but I'm also old enough to acknowledge that I still have the responsibility of waking up and going to work the next morning. I'm young enough to splurge a little extra money on nice clothes & purses or pricey concert tickets but I'm also old enough to know that I have loans and bills to pay. I'm young enough to eat fatty foods every once in a while but I'm also old enough to know that my age is quickly catching up with me and I have to fit in time to exercise and throw in veggies & fruits in order to keep my body healthy. After graduating from college, I wasn't quite sure what to expect out of life. I was anxious, scared, excited, uncertain... but these are feelings that tend to pop up every time you go through some sort of life transition or rite of passage.

All I know is that right now, I'm happy. I am relatively healthy. I have a stable, decent-paying job that I love. I have a car that works. I have supportive, loving parents who allow me to live at home and don't mind feeding me. I have an amazing brother who is also a built-in best friend and who would do anything for me, even if he won't admit it. I am surrounded by a great and diverse group of friends who are there for me when it counts and who constantly show me love. I have an unbelievably incredible boyfriend who loves me for who I am and who encourages me to be a better person everyday. God's blessed me with so much in the past 24 years. I'm forever grateful. Now I don't have to wonder if I'll live to see 24...because I am.

P.S. Even though I'm "in between"... and I want to look older but be younger (if that makes sense)...I have a newfound commitment to enjoy what's left of my youth. They say "youth is wasted on the young." Let's be the exception to that.