Jordan's number, officially!

Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail through the changing ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?

Well, I've been afraid of changin'
'Cause I've built my life around you
But time makes bolder, children get older
I'm getting older too


If you can't beat 'em, join 'em. Here I am at the cusp of my mid-20's, inching closer & closer to what I once considered old age (boy, was I wrong!) They say that the 30's are the new 20's so why complain? Every year of life is something to look forward to. I figure I'm only going to get older from here on out so might as well accept it. Hello 23. Having another year to live, breathe, learn, grow, & love is a gift that I'm planning to cherish and embrace. I've already spent the beginning of my birthday week in great company with family & friends and I am incredibly grateful and blessed. Thank You!

I just had the crappiest day. It felt like all the things that had been stressing me out for the past few months that I had just pushed to the back burner resurfaced and wouldn't disappear no matter how hard I tried to think happy thoughts. Today on the way home from downtown LA, a 50-minute drive that usually only takes me 20-30 minutes, I was so frustrated. I wasn't in the mood to listen to music, I wasn't in the mood to answer my mom's phone calls, I wasn't in the mood to drive, I wasn't in the mood to think at all. But I was. That's all I could do. My mind was on overdrive. I was losing my patience over the traffic and mistook it for my source of aggravation when in reality, it was just the icing on the cake. I realized that it wasn't the traffic, it was so many other things but mainly, the position that I'm in right now.

I finally have my internet back and let me tell you, it was the hardest couple of days for me. I'm back though!

SInce I've been gone:
+ I went to a entrepreneurial leadership panel all the way in Santa Monica for my internship. I had to work the marketing table. I took side streets to get there because of all the rain and thunder that week... it freaked me out. Thankfully, the rain stopped while I drove there and while I drove home. I was there from 5 until 9:30 but I got a free Fred Segal goodie bag filled with expensive stuff including a $55 gift card to Crystallize my skin? lol yeah don't know if I'm gonna use that but I appreciate my stila lip glaze and free memoir liquide 1/4 perfume. The panelists were all pretty good too. They're the founders/CEO's of Fred Segal's STUDIO BEAUTY MIX. Inspiring individuals, to say the least.

+ I finally got through and was able to schedule a last minute interview! I felt like an American Idol hopeful who had to beg her way through to the next round. Thank you Simon for giving me a second chance to prove myself. A lot was riding on this interview including my pride because I completely embarrassed myself last week with the barrage of phone calls I made to her. Luckily, the Director sympathized with my plight and told me that I demonstrated a lot of persistence. We'll see what becomes of this but I'm just thankful I got the opportunity to show her that I'm more than just an annoying desperate job seeker. The 30 minute commute there and back wasn't too bad either.

+ I celebrated Valentine's Day early with Brenton this past Friday. Daisy Mint FTW! He also gave me a beautiful bouquet of roses & some delicious white chocolate covered strawberries as well as chocolate covered marshmallows :D YUM. Food is definitely the way to my heart. I love that guy. It's the simple things that make me happy. After that we just ended up watching the opening ceremonies for the Winter Olympics.

+ Spent my entireeee Saturday at the 1st Annual LA Food Fest. Brenton's not usually early for a lot of things but he got us to food fest incredibly early... like 45 min early. I spent 20 bucks on all kinds of food. We hung out with Erwin, Frances, Jonas, Lennar and Biencess and ate tacos from Don Chow, sliders from Uncle Lau's, grilled mac & cheese sandwiches from the Grilled Cheese Truck, fries from Fry Smith, cookie sandwiches from Cool Haus, yummy desserts from the Sweets Truck, and shaved ice from the shaved ice truck. My only regrets were not being able to try LUDO's fried chicken bites and the Dogzilla dogs. Other than that, it was a very fun and filling day outdoors. Not to mention, all my cousins were practically at Food Fest. We are all foodies at heart. That night, I dragged my brother along with me to the RhymeAlong again cause a bunch of LoG people ended up going. It was fun. I'd never been to that venue before. Although Mountain Bar was more spacious, I think I prefer 72 North better. Did not go up and rap but props to emcee mayonnaise for his excellent rapping skills, courage, and awesome song choice (girls, girls girls - jay-z). Didn't stay super long cause Alex was tired and so was I. Food fest took a lot out of us.

+ Valentine's Day was spent with the other loves of my life: my family haha. We went to mass at IHM and I felt sooooo incredibly old. How else can I explain a former kindergartener being taller than me. I can't believe these kids who were in kinder when I was an 8th grader have now gone through puberty and are almost done with HS. Time flies. Had Chipotle and Zankou today for lunch and dinner. That can't be good for me. No more foodddddd. I'm stuffed.

Hope you enjoyed my recap. I have to catch up on work tomorrow but I get to start my day having brunch with Krystle Diane in LA! :) Yay!

Happy Valentine's Day friends. I love you all!

I have reached a new low. This is day 2 of having no internet at home and I don't know what to do with myself. I'm so frustrated with the situation but more frustrated by the fact that I've grown so dependent on the computer! I use it for everything: talking to friends, listening to music, looking for jobs and applying to them, completing work projects, playing games, social networking, looking up directions to a job interview, and so much more. Ugh 10 years ago I only used the internet to go on aim every once in a while and it only lasted for an hour before I would go back and do something else. Anyway I just got so desperate that I'm blogging on my droid. Yes...believe it. I hate technology. I wanna go back to the days when I didn't care about all this stuff. Well I'm getting tired of using this keyboard lol. Ill update you all on things once I get my internet back. I think ill watch enchanted now haha.

Love, from my cell phone,
Anna

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The job hunt is officially killing me. I'm getting PWN'D and it's not like my resume is empty.

My heart is definitely not in my other internship. I never thought I'd say that I wanted to give something up. I guess it was never there to begin with but now I must clean up my own mess. I wish that the real world didn't involve all this confrontation... I should've listened to Brenton when he said I wouldn't be able to do all these things while looking for a job. He's more rational than I am. I'm still floating in my own little world. I guess I needed something to pop this bubble of mine and this was definitely a wake-up call.

UGH! I can't believe how stupid I was for accepting the time to think about an interview offer. Well, what happened was the director called me to talk to me about the position first and then schedule the interview if I was interested in it. She then said I can have time to think it over and call her back later. So I did call her back yesterday and left a message because she was away from her phone. I called her today too and left another message saying I was interested in interviewing next week and my availabilities are Tues/Thurs. I'm now desperately counting down the days until Monday when I can talk to her in person and see if she'll still give me an interview. I feel like this is already one strike against me. Why was I so hesitant to say yes right on the spot? Next time, no more thinking, I am just going to accept every offer that comes my way as long as I'm interested in it and don't hate it. Beggars can't be choosers and today I learned it the hard way.

first thing's first...happy 24th ton-ton lol. love you! and also belated happy birthday frances! love you too!

Labels: internship

but you didn't need me to tell you that.

February has to be my absolute favorite month of the year. I associate it not only with my birthday but with the colors pink & purple and tons and tons of hearts lol. Of course I also now associate it with the birthdays of so many of my close friends (Janice, Ktyn, Frances, Brenton, MM & Mel). It's a beautiful month!