thank You Lord for this AMAZING day. Your love ALWAYS offers replenishment.

hello paper and two midterms!
but hey...
all things are possible.

All we are
And all we have
Is all a gift from God that we receive
Brought to life
We open up our eyes
To see the majesty and glory of the King

He has filled our hearts with wonder
So that we always remember

You and I are made to worship
You and I are called to love
You and I are forgiven and free
When you and I embrace surrender
When you and I choose to believe
Then you and I will see who we were meant to be

Lifting it up to You.

Taste and See His goodness in You.

Spirit Rally 2007 is TODAY!!!!! :)

no one can decipher me... i can't even decipher myself a majority of the time.

HI WORLD, i'm anna and i've been MIA from this blog and life.

i'm sorry. i feel like i've let so many people down lately, even myself. so much of a friend i am!

i'm still not used to this quarter. just when i think that i know, i don't.

can i even juggle it all anymore? you can only keep things up in the air for so long and then reality hits you & something is bound to fall.

i'm so easily distracted.

practice makes perfect.

Love unfailing
Overtaking my heart
You take me in
Finding peace again
Fear is lost in all You are

offering to You.

BLUE IS LOVE
1. Do you love someone?: yes, You
2. Do you believe in love at first sight?: no, love = time & knowledge
3. Do you believe in Love?: yes i do.

RED IS ANGER
1. Are you currently mad at someone?: no sir
2. Which of your family members has the worst temper?: my dad
3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone? no, i'm not a violent pers
4. Is anyone mad at you?: not that i know of... if so, i'm sorry!
5. Are you usually mad?: no
6. When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell?: stare angrily! hahah

YELLOW IS SELF DISCOVERY
1. NAME: anna liza *. ********
2. Birthday: 22487. i'm 20 years YOUNG.
3. What's your main goal in life?: live out His will & be happy.
4. Do you want to have children?: yeah
5. When do you want to die? when i'm ready haha

ORANGE IS EXCITEMENT
1. Has anyone ever thrown a surprise party for you?: YES! she goes by the name of geraldine aka GIA! oh and when LOG surprised me for my birthday the past two yrs.
2. If you won a million dollars, what would be your first thought?: pay off my loans.
3. If you could have anything right now what would it be? easy question! MY LICENSE.

GREEN IS OPINIONS
1. Are you against gay marriage?: whatever floats your boat
2. Lower the drinking age?: i don't know. young people drink anyway.
3. Abortion?: ultimately it's up to the parents...but we can be the voice.
4. Jesus?: Yes! this is the only question i actually answered lol

PURPLE IS Q&A
Q: how many beds did you lay in today?
A: one

Q: What shirt are you wearing?
A: navy blue UCI shirt

Q: Name one thing that you did today?
A: went to class

Q: How much cash do you have on you right now?
A: $3 HAHAH i didn't withdraw

Q: Is Tom on your friends list?
A: no

Q: Look to your left.
A: the wall

Q: What website(s) do you visit the most during the day?
A: facebook.com, webmail.uci.edu, blogs

Q: Do you have plants in your room?
A: no

Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now?
A: my right hand. i injure easily

Q: Do you own a digital camera?
A: yes i do.

Q: Recent time you were really upset?
A: over the weekend maybe, just arguments with parents.

PINK IS LAST
1. Movie watched in a cinima?: i don't even remember... HAH probably music&lyrics LOL
2. Song you listened to?: everyone's been singing "my humps"
3. Person you talked on the phone with: my mom?

GRAY IS TODAY
1. What are you doing tonight?: studying and sleeping for the rest of the night!
2. What are you going to eat?: nothing until i wake up! haha

BROWN IS FOR TOMORROW
1.TOMORROW IS: wednesday
2. Are you Looking forward to it?: i'm trying to.
3. Are you going to laugh?: YES... that is the one thing that's guaranteed!:)

i'm gonna do homework now. goodbye!

what is happening?!

i know you've served me well but i think it's time that i invested my time in writing in something that's handy and portable, that will remind me of things to do and motivate me to reach my daily, weekly and monthly goals. that's right...

i want a grown-up planner.

i've learned my lesson.

the IH planner tempts me to draw and doodle on it.
the UCI planner just doesn't cut it for me.

i want a planner that's divided into little subsections and that can accomodate ALL parts of my life, not just academically.

i don't want another homework assignment notebook.

i think i will use my 25 dollar target giftcard to purchase a planner.

and NO, i will not use the "notes section" of the planner to let other people write notes to me & write in pager code as i did when i was younger.

it's sad that i devoted this entire blog to talking about a planner but that's the way i feel.

my life's a mess. will a planner help me?

stay tuned.

but not really.

sincerely,
your faithful blogger,
anna

P.S. i've decided i'm going to get a MacBook from the UCI bookstore this week. what do you think? i've always wanted one soooo we'll see. it's comparatively cheaper if i got one from the bookstore than from a Mac store. that's all.

hi friend, YOU are somebody. yes YOU are, yes YOU are. please believe it.

i was in your place one year ago.

YOU are ME & we're the same :)

if we can do it, so can you!

i wish you'd see how beautiful you are,
i wish you'd see how He shines through you,
i wish you'd see how your smile brightens up my day, her day, his day, their day, all our days.
i wish you'd see the gifts He's given you,
i wish you'd open your eyes to the Love that lives in You.

what i MEANT to say was:
i pray that you see how beautiful you are,
i pray that you see how He shines through you,
i pray that you see how your smile brightens up my day, her day, his day, their day, all our days.
i pray that you see the gifts He's given you,
i pray that you open your eyes to the Love that lives in You.

i can see it & i know the world can.

Let go and let God. it's easy to say but difficult to do. the Spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.

...but I believe in you and more importantly i believe in You. we can do ALL things through God who strengthens us. i'm not too good with the bible quoting but i think that verse is something i tell myself every morning when i wake up.

all things are possible. trust. everyone around me is a testament to that.

you never cease to amaze me.

i look up to you.

i can't believe how things have changed in just one year. Thank You.

Lord God, make me Your instrument.

i love You & you.

...if you're willing to share

i'm praying for you always.

it's raining.

now i have to change... or i should change my clothes but i'm lazy.

something has re-ignited? my desire to get my license. I WILL GET IT.
kjsdghaksdghsdkjghksadg.

have a good day!

to get by.

how to be patient.

i'm tired & fed up with this school business...to the point where i just want to throw in the towel & sleep through my classes. i'm so IMpatient... with l i f e. i watch the clock and wait until each class is over every single day, day in and day out. i get antsy and pack up the two minutes before it turns _:50 or _:20. i look forward to the time when i can finally go home. my life is dictated by the clock. i feel tied down. i feel like i don't have the luxury to just BE. i know that i'm blessed to have been given so many opportunities to serve this year... and i know i'm not the only one overwhelmed because i know that you all probably feel the same way. it's just hard when my schedule last year was more flexible and allowed me to spend more time with my friends. if you didn't know, my friends mean A LOT to me. and that's an understatement. so it hurts and it's frustrating when i know that i can't be there for everyone. the truth is i miss you. you may not know it but i do. i feel like the days i do get to see you are always just spent in passing...a hello, goodbye, how are you does not come close to deep talks and long conversations. one day at a time. i need to learn how to be patient. soon, i'll be able to be the same old Annaaaa again, awkward, clumsy, up for hanging out, non-napping, early sleeping, talkative, enthusiastic Anna. right now He wants me to do this. this is where He wants me to be. so i must sacrifice.

Praise God that every Tuesday I get to walk through the double doors of the 'faith. I can't help but smile & feel grateful to be surrounded by so many people that I love in one place. AHHHH. i think meechy & derrick have done this before sooo vagueness. here it comes. i'm talking to you. i bet you know cause i suck at it.

mad love. i miss it and i'm glad i got a taste of it again after a long time haha.

reunited and it feels so good.

i need my brain. i functioned without it tonight lol. where did you go? i miss you so!

you're too much sometimes but you're one of my best friends anyway.

promise that we'll be friends forever...drinks? soon? HAHA. that sounds so bad but you know what i'm talking about! not playing is fun. i like our conversations. you teach me to appreciate the little things.

you're beautiful. i need my shadow. please stay a while longer. i'm still a baby & i need to follow you. i love you. you make me smile. i'm expecting the second invite :)

and then a hero comes along with the strength to carry on. you're my hero. winning team for life! we will stand and proclaim!

I SCREAM YOU SCREAM we all scream for ICE CREAM!...and perhaps yummy potato balls haha. maybe? if we have time. you're the best lunch buddy in the world. one day our schedules will again align and we can have lunch again but i'll settle for ice cream with you any day ;) it's a privilege to be your third hahah.

what happened to our daily conversations? why did they stop? oh yeah, LIFE. i miss you SO much & i know that sometimes your crosses are hard to bear but you carry them with tremendous strength, courage, & grace. i look up to you for that. thanks for your concern & your love. we need to catch up & go to that in-between place. i'm here and praying for you always. if you need me to help lighten your load, i'm ALWAYS up for it. let me know if you need some tape...i'd steal some for you any day =]

your box is nowhere near as cool as you. i miss turning the beat around. your presence alone makes me feel a million times cooler, like i'm cool enough to freeze water cool. you've grown so much this past year and i admire you for that. the world turns because YOU'RE in it. thanks for not leaving me. i'll never leave you...ohlright... 8)

hiiii i miss you yo. when can we have another adventure? barnes? target? starbucks? have a BEAUTIFUL week, you deserve it... only the best. i'm YOUR number one fan. try to pencil me in some time. we need to talk ;) word.

let's take a ride! remember the time when... you fill in the blank! you're so HOT...i'm not surprised if the world tells you to "cool it now." thanks for being HOT and for being you and for being so AWESOME talaga! even when you're violent and when you tease me, you make me laugh. i keep imagining you as a kid lol. can we be friends again? thanks.

when i say COMMO you say DITY! hey commo! you're my role model. don't break too many :) you may be weird but i love you anyway haha.

when can i pick it up? when can we hang out again? sorry that life gets in the way. we're both busy (you especially) but i'm still yp' beh-beh! you can count on me :) i'm PROUD of you. i can't wait to see what you've done.

yo i miss you...like a GUAP :$ let's get cookies sooooon. the fairies have got your back always and so do i. i've got my pencil ready. i'll try to make it for you whenever i get the chance... it needs the other half lol. i'll never wear black ever & i hope you don't either or i'll be really sad. you're the favorite.

it's beautiful. YOU KILL ME. thanks for being there and helping me out because i know you're busy but you make time all the time & i'd do the same for you. smile! YOU know! BOMB diggity fo sho... things will go your way... hold on for one more day! :D

you woke me up from my nap today hahah but it's okay i forgive you. i like how you've been sort of m.i.a. but not really. thanks for never completely being m.i.a., at least in my life. i don't tell you this often but you're a true friend. thank you for always checking up on me & being patient with my lack of phone skills. i miss you. fix it already! gosh. don't worry. you'll never make me cry.

hi i know you're not feelin' it right now but i pray that some day you will find that sense of peace and contentment that you've been looking for. your missing piece! :) smile! thanks for letting me in, even if it's just a little and giving me the chance to see the world through your eyes.

i'm never taking your advice again lol. you're wrong like 99.9% of the time but i listen to you anyway because of that .1% that's right. come back soon. i have problems that need solving...just kidding. thanks for the words of encouragement and for telling me what to do. i'm getting a playlist soon =P btw, it's an honor to be second to you.

i'm telling you, i'm not gonna make an announcement unless you... soooooo just DO IT! it'll be fun. the dynamics! your hotness! duh.

who are you trying to impress huh? hahah JUST KIDDING. i love you. i miss you. our filipino dinners need to make a comeback. i'm glad you're doing better.

you're the most gangsta person i know. next time you go out, take me with you! :) we haven't traded in a while. no worries though. i'm sure you have more to share! you're sooo talented. can i be your groupie? i'd watch your hippo for you ANY day.

my mondays aren't the same without you. OFFERS! patty melts! random conversations. the future. fun stuff.

I'm SOOOO proud of you. you don't even know.

in summary, i'm too tired to continue so i'll end with an I MISS YOU... so talk to me and update me thanks. good night. have a beautiful day! :)

allergy season.
homework time.
drop card.
stressed out.
reality check.
waiting game.
opening doors.
missed opportunities.
thinking chair.
in between.
all work.
no play.
gaining perspective.
calm down.
just listen.
pray hard.
perfect mess.
get me?

... He knows.

I don't.

Hungry I come to You
For I know You satisfy
I am empty but I know
Your love does not run dry
So I wait for You
So I wait for You

I'm falling on my knees
Offering all of me
Jesus You're all
This heart is living for

Broken I run to You
For Your arms are open wide
I am weary but I know Your touch
Restores my life
So I wait for You
So I wait for You


Lord God, i don't necessarily know where i'm going but i'm placing my trust in Your will. thank You for holding my hand.

what are YOU holding on to?
maybe it's time to let go.



i am definitely my own worst enemy.

soulstar oh you've come, so far from where you started, don't be afraid to let your light shine on the world.

"i am a star. i decide when to let my light shine."
and that time is NOW.

let the Son shine. for real.

what do you want? i don't know. what can you give? nothing much. all my life, i've devalued myself and my abilities. too often i chose to suppress everything from my feelings to my thoughts to my words to my actions... and even my own gifts. i was fooled into thinking that by doing so, i was being HUMBLE. how ignorant of me. i mistook fear, insecurity, and selfishness for humility. i was naive. someone once said that humility is not denying the gifts that God has given you, but instead recognizing that you've been given these gifts and using them to serve others, to spread His love to other people. enlightenment.

i'm beginning to see that all things ARE possible through You. i come to You, well aware of my imperfections & insecurities, weak because I know that without You I am nothing...but i take comfort in knowing that You are always there to strengthen me. i ask You to live in me, let me be Your dwelling place, despite my inconfidence in myself or my unworthiness. my pieces are scattered but You put me back together again.

in the darkness is the light. this little light of mine, i'm gonna let it shine. even when it's faint, this light... Your light still flickers in the dark. thank You. thank You for the greatness that you've instilled in every one of my brothers & sisters, and especially in me. despite my hesitance to see it, You never cease in allowing others to. please continue to walk with me through my struggles & help me overcome my fear, the one obstacle to my fully receiving You. i ask this in Your name, through the blessed intercession of our Mama Mary and all the holy & beautiful angels and saints in heaven. Amen.

You said, ask and you will receive, whatever you need.

so a life lesson: move forward.

i think i've almost got that down.

but note to self: be mindful of direction.

lately i feel as though i've been giving and giving and giving... to so many different parts of my life... but have i really been giving my all? i can't tell anymore. i feel so exhausted.

prayers for everyone.

that it's only week 2 and i'm already stressed?

When I was young
Id listened to the radio
Waitin for my favorite songs
Waiting they played Id sing along
It made me smile

Those were such happy times
And not so long ago
How I wondered where theyd gone
But theyre back again
Just like a long lost friend
All the songs I loved so well

every sha-la-la-la
Every wo-wo-wo
Still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That theyre starting to sing
So fine

When they get to the part
Where hes breakin her heart
It can really make me cry
Just like before
Its yesterday once more

Lookin back on how it was
In years gone by
And the good times that I had
Makes today seem rather sad
So much has changed

It was songs of love that
I would sing to then
And Id memorize each word
Those old melodies
Still sound so good to me
As they melt the years away

All my best memories
Come back clearly to me
Some can even make me cry
Just like before
Its yesterday once more

i want to try to minimize my time online. i get too easily distracted. for example, i am blogging when i should be sleeping. oh well. bullet point time!
- there's a disturbing silence within bernannas or more like their room & i don't like it.
- drama is never fun, even if you're just a bystander watching it happen (well at least for me it isn't)
- how can you achieve balance? i'm no longer a first year and i still don't know
- try to stay on top of things
- the library is my favorite place in the world.
- peace is every step
- smile, happiness you can model it your heart & mind baby follow it ( i think i've quoted this line like a million times on my blog but it always keeps me going)
- and now i'm ready to be EXTRAORDINARY.
- homework = too much this quarter.
- i'm drowninggggggggg in stresssssssss and it's only week 2.
- we need a better vacuum cleaner
- my eyes are itchy and my nose is sniffly? sniffling? BOO TO ALLERGIES.
- some bug is biting me and bernie. yuuuuuck.
- one too many classes tomorrow/today
- the end.
- happy TUESDAY!
- LOG MEETING :) EXCITEDDDDDD.
- make it a great day!
- praying for you allllll.

p.s. can you please pray for my grandma on my mom's side... it WOULD have been her birthday if she was still alive. thank you. that is all.

i've been at the library since 5. my head hurts from reading and i realize i haven't eaten yet. i feel the urge to give up but i need to tryyy try try! try dhaskdljgdhglkjdghldskg. i also need to finish my education hw. bahumbug. whatever that means. peace my friends. back to studying i go :/

I was a bay tree
Quiet and unseen
I lived in stories but inside I kept a mystery
I was a starling
Nobody’s darling
Flying in perfect circles
Desperate company

And now I’m ready
And now I’m ready
And now I’m ready to be
E x t r a o r d i n a r y

A midnight airplane
A window blowing
I know I am another sparkle in the sky
I shine on copper
Still undiscovered
But you must see me in the corner of your eye

And now I’m ready
And now I’m ready
And now I’m ready to be
Extraordinary

Waking up to wake up some day
I am my own prey
Stopping off at a sidewalk cafe
The wind is playing up in the trees
Kicking up confetti leaves
Sings as if it’s all to say

And now I’m ready
And now I’m ready
And now I’m ready to be
Extraordinary

And now I’m ready
And now I’m ready
And now I’m ready to be
Extraordinary


Happy Easter!

getting lazy about this blogging business.

life's moving & stopping just hinders my progress.

he called me sweetie & he smells good. i love her dress. she has a beautiful voice. they're incredibly talented.

best concert ever.

homework time.

mondays are my bum days. i look like a bum on mondays because i have to wear my pass tshirt since i tutor. there isn't a lot you can do to dress it up and there's only so much you can do to accessorize. usually i go about my mondays by putting on the red burgundy-ish shirt and putting on a pair of jeans and wearing a sweatshirt over the shirt to complete the outfit. of course, what's a bum day without putting my hair up? it's a completely low maintanence look. but boy do i dread running into trendy people like kathy bernabe or michelle saba on mondays. today for example... hahah oh twin@heart i knew you were gonna say something about my outfit. don't hate, appreciate :]

you know who has quite the sense of humor? He does. I bet He gets a laugh when He sees me running around and stressing out. He sure knows how to pull your leg when you're too wound up to notice the light-heartedness of the world around you. i started the day off with a semi-frown that turned into a smile. running into familiar friendly faces (YAY alliteration!) on campus was more happiness than i could've asked for. it was like one face after another. i love those kinds of days. they evoke a sense of belonging which evoke a sense of comfort. anyway friends calmed me down throughout the day. it was a nice way to begin the quarter.

not to mention, it was a day of productivity! went to class, bought zotbucks (finally, two quarters late), paid for summer session in person (well for one class so far), bought school supplies at the bookstore, went to le dip for lunch and ate with a bunch of loggers, went to work for 2 hours, turned in my change of major form (i guess it's settled, PSB here i come) went to the library to tutor, came back and ate dinner at brandywine with jamie & khrystyn, and now i am at home.

HOORAY. i am in a way better mood now. i'm on a roll with this productivity. i am determined to get my act together this quarter and handle it! si se puede! we can do it friends!

praying for you all. have a beautiful week 1! thank you for making me smile!

i don't deal well with adjusting.

things that are bothering me already about this quarter:
- i signed up for two discussions at 1pm on Wednesday... they're conflicting. i don't know how to go about fixing that. i hate using add/drop cards to switch classes but i might have to end up using them.
- with work and extracurriculars, 16 units may be a little too much to handle so can i handle them all? i think it's fear of bad grades that makes me want drop a class.
- when can i do my homework if i have class all day tues/thurs and work on m/w/f?
- i don't remember what i learned in linguistics two quarters ago! ugh.
- i need to buy school supplies.
- my printer is running out of ink.
- i still need to sign up for summer school because for some reason it won't accept my card even if there's money on it.
- UGH!

UGH!

i know it's bad to start off the quarter on the wrong foot and with the wrong mindset but seriously, this sucks. i'm gonna stop whining and go to class soon.

have a good first day. i will tryyyy.

back to life, back to reality. i want to disappear sometimes. oh foom. i don't know how i am. that is definitely not a first. i don't think i'm indifferent. i think i'm unwilling to let myself feel. does that make sense? yeah it does. irvine, i don't want to be here cause i don't want to go to school. i'm a lazy girl.

BUT

i will try to be positive...about life.

OHHH i get to change the quotes on my board... new quarter = new inspirational quotes. yay.

yesterday was the best way to end my break. kids choice awards with gen, alex, and gia! fun times. justin timberlake + zac efron + orlando bloom + jesse mccartney = love. it seriously felt like we were 6th graders again. not just because my mom dropped us off (since gen & gia were too tired to drive). i was so starstruck. i couldn't breathe when i saw justin...even if he wasn't that close to me. i didn't think i was gonna scream but gen & i sooo screamed at the top of our lungs. gen kept calling justin her husband. how old are we?! anyway we sat as seatfillers alongside people like vanessa anne hudgens and we saw nelly, chris brown, hayden panitierre?? from heroes, jamie lynn spears, larry king, will ferrell, jon heder, steve carrell, maroon 5, gwen stefani, akon, and some other people who i can't remember at the moment. it was so much fun. the gwen stefani song was stuck in my head for the rest of the night. i haven't felt like that in a while... the teenybopper side of me. then we went to starbucks and chilled until we got picked up. then we dropped gen off and gia took me trina and alex to niko niko in la and we had pinkberry afterwards. trina makes me laugh all the time. i love her for it. "yoshinoya's wackkkk." I can't wait till summer cause we're gonna have a Kairos...FORREAL.

other than that, i didn't get much sleep last night. i had to wake up early because we went to palm Sunday mass at the cathedral. then i took a nap afterwards and headed back to irvine for the servant leader recharge around 2:30. then i had dinner with frances, bmay, abby, lennar, sarah, and jen at sam woo. then we went to shawshank and watched hannah montana, suite life of zack and cody and some of the parent trap. yay for the disney channel! now i'm at the apt thinking about all the things i have to do but not doing anything about it. THAT is MY idea of the perfect day before the first day of class. ugh. OK POSITIVE THINKING AGAIN.

things will be okay. i can do this. i'm a grown up...sort of.

my fortune today said "now's the time to finish old tasks."

i don't want to.
sorry for whining like this entire blog.

I CAN NOT SLACK OFF THIS QUARTER.
focus. concentrate. A's! seriously.

spring quarter, be kind.