last night i dreamt that i went on an airplane for the first time and it wasn't scary. i remember looking outside of my window and the sky looked like a regular road. it looked familiar so i felt comfortable. my seat converted into a bed and i slept through most of the plane ride and woke up feeling very relaxed and amazed that i hadn't freaked out. my brother, on the other hand, was a little more scared than i was. i wonder what this means...


To see an airplane in your dream, indicates that you will overcome your obstacles and rise above to a new level of prominence and status. You may experience a higher consciousness, new-found freedom and greater awareness.

If you are sleeping in your own bed, then it denotes security and restoration of your mind. You are looking for domestic bliss and peace.

Love is about finding courage inside of you that you didn't even know was there.

Today was the first day of my senior year of college. I don't know what to say about it other than it was good. I've been meaning to blog but I've been putting it off. I keep finding more important things to do I guess. Life is different but I'm managing somehow. I have a couple of things on my plate but I like it that way. It keeps me busy and it keeps me focused. It stops me from thinking too much because when I think too much, I get emotional and when I'm emotional, I cry. Despite having 3 back-to-back classes, I had fun today because it felt as though my time in college came full circle. I gave directions to freshmen and I actually knew where places were just by hearing their abbreviations. I ran into so many of my old dormmates from Vista and had genuine catch-up conversations with a few them; it wasn't just small talk. I like being a senior because I thrive on the familiarity of it all. I like knowing where my classes are. I like knowing the distance from one area on campus to the other. I like walking around and seeing people I know (not quite Angie-status). I realized that for the first time ever I've developed a true sense of who I am as a person and what I can do and what I can contribute. I've been thinking a lot about my strengths lately and it's motivated me to try harder & do more. I'm so excited for this year, not only because I'm gonna graduate, but because there are SO many opportunities waiting out there for me. It's up to me to find them. I smile just thinking about it. My life is so full of promise right now... it's gaining momentum, yes it is. But then of course, with every positive thing, there are the negatives. I'm realizing more and more that I am no longer the baby. How can I be the baby when all the people who used to baby me left? As much as I loved being taken care of, it's comforting to know that I can finally take care of myself. It's definitely been a change. I'd like to think that I'm ready now... well, I'm as ready as I'll ever be. And as for my apt, I couldn't have asked for a better set of roommates, friends & sisters than these girls. I'm happy coming home to this every day. I LOVE LOVE LOVE the career center already. i've made a few friends. it's gonna be fun working there this year. i'm not ready to study quite yet but i'm getting there. i miss a ton of people right now. i got so excited seeing lennar on campus. i get sad sometimes but then i shake it off and remind myself of how blessed i am to be surrounded by so many people i love.

i know i can do it but it just gets hard sometimes when i'm so used to you being here.



p.s. i miss you.
i'm sorry.

<3anna>

i FINALLY got the 2008-2009 academic planner that i've been wanting for forever!
it's a franklin-covey planner (compass design) and it's BEAUTIFUL. i love it! it seriously made my day and it was $24 BUT it came with the leather cover so it's refillable! YAY! i can totally take on the year now.


things on my plate for this quarter: family, friends, relationships, school, liwanag, career center, registrar, make-a-wish (only for a little longer), research, pass, and "me" time! yay.



wow i just blogged about a planner.

<3anna


lessons to the kids who read this blog: don't grow up too fast. seriously. don't.


the freshmen moved into the dorms... and so begins my last year at UCI. C-R-A-Z-Y.

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yeah i know... ive been seeing it too. i dont know why im like this right now
i havent had a break. im really tired and i know other pple have greater crosses to carry and worse problems than me but i cant help it. im really tired. i havent fully enjoyed my summer
and i know a lot of it was by choice... i chose to be emo sometimes i chose to have a negative attitude
but other things were out of my control... like my parents' financial problems and me having to stay in irvine to work
im sad cuz i usually get to hang out with my home friends more than just once a summer... im sad cuz i want to sleep in
and then in the midst of all this... its hard to balance liwanag when i feel so tired & drained and how can i be the best person for other pple when i cant even be the best person for myself
ive been getting so easily irritated and annoyed by people too and as much as i want to fight it... i just use it as an excuse not to talk to many of them. IM SELFISH.
i feel so guilty cuz i know that gens call last week was true... i shouldve done more and tried harder to be there for her and rachelle on their birthdays... and now im gonna miss my cousins birthday
cuz of retreat
its like i put everything on hold for myself and im not even doing anything for myself
i didnt even find time or money to take care of myself... ive been skipping meals.... decided to end my lunch breaks early. IM REALLY TIRED. i just wanted a week to be home
but i cant even go home this week

there is your update.

i believe in second chances.

britney made a comeback. i am happy.

i'm also settling into shawshank :)

presenting the new shawshank (cause jonas told me to take pictures)... all we need is bmay's stuff!

just for jonas:

SO i'm sad to have missed what people have been calling an epic party on friday... but i really needed time off... time away... i didn't realize how tiring it is to move... AND to live out of a suitcase or boxes. all i want is to be settled and feel at home. it's getting there. all i know is, i needed a weekend at home.

thoughts for the day:
- i don't like being drunk dialed...
- i feel bad that i'm missing yet another family party
- i hope my cousin doesn't hate me.
- i've turned down 4 vegas trips this summer lol
- time to tackle what's next on the to-do list...
- ahhhhhhh.
- my hair is super short... almost kathy bernabe short!!!!! it'll take some getting used to
- i love my roommates <3 they all make me smile.
- i am itchy
- my bug bites are gross
- i can't wait to set up my room!
- i don't want to start school yet
- i'm excited for next year!
- I'M A RESEARCH ASSISTANT!
- it's weird having to drive to school.
- i miss being across the street from campus.
- thanks best friend (brenton michael) for visiting me in LA today <3
- yum salo salo grill!
- i've actually been following this election... just because i genuinely want to.
- stress less and smile more - my goal.
- RELAX anna RELAX.

that's all i can come up with right now. soooo i will sleep and ttyl.

xoxo,
anna

i was supposed to go to my internship today but i can't because i would need a ride because i can't drive my car because i need to renew my insurance because i need money because EVERYTHING IS TOO EXPENSIVE THESE DAYS! i hate you money but i keep working my hardest to earn you! ugh.

anyway, now i am at pbay and everyone else is asleep. jamie & kathee already left. so what am i gonna do with my free time you ask? probably work. that's all i do because i need the money. mo money mo problems (and the same goes for no money... no money, mo problems).

things to do: go to the bank today, turn in the constitution & money, meet with a professor tomorrow... i want a planner.

we still have to move into shawshank after the carpet gets re-installed. i have gotten into the habit of still calling it shawshank and still saying "cristina & angie's room" instead of jamie & krystle's or "kaylene & kathee's room". it'll take some getting used to.

now i am gonna kill some time before people wake up. yay.

bye!


i knew this wasn't gonna be easy.
i am sorry.