I can be the moodiest baby and you've never met anyone
Who is as negative as I am sometimes

I am the wisest woman you've ever met.
I am the kindest soul with whom you've connected.
I have the bravest heart that you've ever seen
And you've never met anyone
Who's as positive as I am sometimes.

You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate
And you're still here

I blame everyone else, not my own partaking
My passive-aggressiveness can be devastating
I'm terrified and mistrusting
And you've never met anyone as,
As closed down as I am sometimes.

You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate
And you're still here

What I resist, persists, and speaks louder than I know
What I resist, you love, no matter how low or high I go

I'm the funniest woman that you've ever known
I'm the dullest woman that you've ever known
I'm the most gorgeous woman that you've ever known
And you've never met anyone
Who is as everything as I am sometimes

You see everything (you see everything), you see every part (you see every part )
You see all my light (you see all my light) and you love my dark (and you love my dark )
You dig everything (you dig everything) of which I'm ashamed (of which I'm ashamed)
There's not anything (there's not anything) to which you can't relate (to which you can't relate)
And you're still here

(You see everything, you see every part)
And you're still here
(You see all my light and you love my dark)
And you're still here
(You dig everything of which I'm ashamed)
(There's not anything to which you can't relate)
And you're still here...

Today my brother introduced me to this song called "As I Am" by an artist named Ebrahim. He also showed me Melissa Polinar's (an amazing youtube singer's) cover of the song and I fell in love with both versions of the song in addition to the lyrics. I think the song is beautiful. Whenever I feel like I'm at a loss for words, I try to find a song that captures exactly how I feel. Music brings everything to life. How powerful is that? I love it.

listen:


If you took a look at me now
I know you may not see too much
No fancy occupation name
Or the time for Sunday brunch
See the life I live is quite simple
Cause all that complex stuff
Gets in the way of what I’m trying to do
And that’s give you my love
So if you…

Take me as I am
And let your heart find its
Way to me
See I’ll be all that you need
Oh if you take me as I am
You know I want to share my world with you
And I’ll give my love that’s true

Now everyday your love inspires me
You keep striving for the better things
So one day we can live all comfortably
I see it in your eyes
But don’t worry no more
I may not have it all planned
But I can see what the future holds

Take me as I am
And let your heart find its
Way to me
See I’ll be all that you need
Oh if you take me as I am
You know I want to share my world with you
And I’ll give my love that’s true

my foot hurts.
congrats flo & wolfe!
i'm actually excited to go home.
i want to sleep for 8 hours.
i want to watch a movie.
i want to read.
i want to eat home-cooked food.
i want to do something fun.
i want to go swimming.
i want to learn how to ride a bike.
i want to turn all these "want's" into "will's".
i will make today a good day & i will make this weekend a good weekend.

i also want this foot muscle pain to go away.

oh life.

i know i just saw my parents 2 weeks ago but i miss them and my brother...but when i move home in august, i'm pretty sure that's not gonna be the case anymore.

i am getting sleepy. peace out.

already?!

the festivities of graduation are officially done. i'll miss it. it's been an amazing 4 years at UCI and i am proud to be an anteater and an alumna.

sorry for not updating as often but here is a list of things i've been up to recently:
work, work, work, work, sleep, eat, hang out with the shawshank visitors (shout outs to angie, mel, dean, mattman, julienne, brenton & sarah killian!) and my roommates who came back this week, LoG rosary & bonfire!, swimming with the roommates, shopping & ramen with Krystian? aka Julian & Krystle, hanging out at brenton's hood: LM, using up my grad gift cards, watching the hangover & eating dino's chicken with paul, darlene & my brother, going to CPK & the griffin with old friends, postponing my inevitable transition into adulthood.

now i'm about to leave for vegas. well, actually, leave for my aunt & uncle's house and then proceed to vegas. i'm going there with my aunts, uncles & cousins & my immediate family. 3/8 olivares families are going. not bad at all. i don't actually know what i'm gonna do there. it's been 5 years since i've been to vegas. last time i went i was 17 and about to start my senior year of high school. i am getting OLD and i'm not liking it too much.

anyway must head out, have a good 4th of July :)

<3