I CAN'T WAIT!

it's been a week since i watched wicked & a lot has happened... let's see... on wednesday i watched wicked with my mom & brother... it gets better every time i see it & it makes me cry every time lol. on thursday i had dinner with meechy at ichiban in glendale & we walked around the americana! it was fun catching up with her. on friday, i went with my brother to UCLA to get his books & we had diddy riese cookies. i came back to irvine on saturday afternoon to celebrate my 1 yr anniversary with brenton! yay haha. we ate at javier's in newport beach and then we went to balboa peninsula and took the ferry to balboa island. i rode my very first ferris wheel ever LOL in balboa island. apparently it was also the smallest ferris wheel ever.




then on sunday, i went to lennar's graduation party... the food was DELICIOUS!!! i had the best california rolls ever! compliments to the chef for real. porto's never fails. then i went to the 6:30pm mass at interfaith. on monday, wait what DID i do on monday? lol oh yeah i went to work and we had a core meeting... and then i was productive and worked on my resume and applied to different internship positions. yesterday i went to work and then DISNEYLAND, the happiest place on earth (it seriously is)... good times, good company! thanks abby bmay jamie jonas lennar dean and kathee!! i watched fantasmic for the first time and the fireworks too and i went to sonic's for the first time too! wow a lot of first's lol. today i went to work and we had another core + music min heads meeting and then i walked to gen grill and bought myself dinner & now i'm home and my roommates are finally here again lol.

in other news, i am worn out. the novelty of lots of things has worn out. i need to find rejuvenation somehow. something's missing & i know what it is but i can't seem to find a way to reach it.

peace.

today was a day of productivity & i liked it.

anyway, i was reading scans of the new Covergirl with vanessa anne hudgens on the cover. she was talking about relationships and said...

"if you really love someone, you shouldn't have to work at it. You finish each other's sentences and have the same sense of humor"

i hate to say it, but i think she's wrong about that first part. relationships do take work. as appealing as it is to live on cloud 9 forever, it's naive to think that your relationship will be successful if you don't put effort into making it work. her statement was too sugar-coated for my liking. that's my 2 cents.

p.s. the chili cheese fries at carl's jr. suck.

i'm getting tired so i shall get ready for bed now. ttyl! wow i'm bad at writing blogs now.

i know i'm in complete control of my attitude but when it's buried under unnecessary, petty & negative thoughts, it's hard to keep my head up. i was getting pretty good at convincing myself to look on the bright side but reality is... i'm no optimist.

jealousy, neglect, fear, doubt = my downfall.

i need to work on my Faith this summer & i mean REALLY work on it because i may be content with where I am right now but my relationship with Him could always be better. i can always be better.

I know that You and I have been on the outs lately because I'm human & I'm guilty of brushing you off when my life's been smooth sailing but I yearn to get closer to You & I know it won't be easy but I'm willing to put my trust in You... if only I could set aside these things that are weighing me down.

why do i always have to look at life as a competition? why must i always compare myself with other people?

i'm my own person. the only thing left for me to do is believe it.

good night.

.


and he says he's not artsy.

Labels: anniversary, branna, brenton

happy one year son!

i love you! <3


:)

i looove this song. i can relate :D

I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I have this dream
Right inside of me
I'm gonna let it show, it's time
To let you know
To let you know

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm suppose to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way

This is real, This is me
I'm exactly where I'm suppose to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you, I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you, I gotta find you

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm suppose to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me (this is me)
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

Labels: Camp Rock

my newest read: Peter

Labels: anteater, peter, UCI

we weren't allowed to take pictures in the theatre but i had to. i couldn't help it. our seats were so good! yay wicked. i fell in love with it all over again :D



one short day in the Emerald City...




more later.

Labels: wicked

it's a Lakernation and i'm just living in it (especially in my hood). last night was disappointing, not just for my dad & my brother, but also for my mom, uncles & cousins. it'll take a while for my dad to get over this tough loss... but they still believe... as do many true Laker fans & as many true Laker fans should. even though i may not be a basketball fan (i'm not a sports person)... i sympathize. however, my dad will not be in a good mood for a while. no money. sad times. i can only imagine what my uncles & cousins are feeling... i bet they're ready to punch people in the face.

anyway, as for me, it was a sad night because i was struggling with the same question that's been bugging me the past few days/weeks/months... what am i gonna do with my life & how am i gonna get there? i feel like i'm being left behind somehow even though i'm not. i probably also feel this way because i'm at home doing nothing haha. to top it off, i'm not even sure about the car thing next year. it really sucks. i don't have the luxury of just asking my mom to get a car & she'll get it for me. there's more to it than that. my mom wants to get me a car but i don't know if i'd even accept it, considering the cost of buying one, especially since my brother's probably gonna get one too. ugh money i hate you. i also hate being broke. this is why i'm probably going to work this summer even though i'd rather work somewhere else. beggars definitely can't be choosers.

i can't let any thoughts of negativity ruin next year. i can't be a downer. i will survive... like the rest of the world.

p.s. i watched TV & played mario kart yesterday... that's how bored i was.

peace out.

it's summer time! brenton pointed out how i didn't seem as excited to be spending my summer in LA as i had been the past few years. yes, it feels good to be home & have nothing to do but at the same time, i WANT something to do. i need something to do to feel productive. i've been looking for jobs & internships but i really haven't been taking action. i stop myself from even considering some of my options because i think i won't get it... or that i don't have enough experience. of course, transportation is always a concern. my brother's gonna be using the car this summer to commute to UCLA for summer school. there's always my last resort... working at the registrar's for the 3rd!!!! summer in a row. it's not as appealing but i'm pretty desperate & will take whatever means of earning money i can get. anyway, i don't want this entry to be a downer because i'm not sad or anything. i am happy that i have a lot of options. i'm just feeling a little overwhelmed, that's all.

You... you're just a big... fat... panda!
"I'm not a big fat panda. I'm THE big fat panda."

today i watched "Kung Fu Panda" with my family. i liked that movie hahahah. it's about a panda. duh!

we went to the americana & they have a beard papa store there!! so i tried their cream puffs for the first time. the cookie shell tastes good with ice cream in it. that's all. i have such a sweet tooth.

my new summertime album is "Seeing Sounds"- N.E.R.D. it actually sounds more like their "in search of" album which i liked a lot. i'm listening to it right now!! yayyy!

i also watched TV today hahah. WEIRD HUH?! well for me it is. i hadn't watched TV in a while but i watched jon & kate plus 8... i soooo love that show. i also got to watch a little bit of the disney channel & the bachelorette & saved by the bell & fresh prince of bel-air.

i think i might sleep soon & it's only 10:23pm.

big plans = not enough time.

until tomorrow, peace out.

Labels: N.E.R.D., panda, summer

as grown up & mature as i make myself out to be, i still have my immature moments. sometimes i get jealous... not of who you are, but of where you are in life and the place that you are in right now. it's wrong of me to feel this way because i've had my turn. i don't need it anymore but you do.

this is probably going to be one of the things that i will struggle with the most next year. why do i even feel this way? you deserve to be happy. you deserve the best in life. i could never harbor resentment towards you because i love you.

"...you don't know that sometimes i wish i were you & i wish i was still treated the way you are...sometimes."

you know what i want to tell myself? GROW UP & GET OVER IT.

in other news, i love home & i love my family.

happy father's day dad!

time for a well-deserved nap.

i am very much an introvert...maybe even moreso than an extrovert. this has yet to be determined but i'm almost sure of it.

let's see how it plays out.

btw, i've got a good feeling about this.

still internship-less & technically job-less.

GOFORIT. connectfour!

<3 anna

that's what one piece of flair on facebook says. it made me LOL forreal, especially because i can hear abby saying it in her cute abby voice. i love you abby lol :)

anyway, i told dumo & will today that if any year of my life could be a TV sitcom or a TV show, it would definitely be next year. why, you ask? because of all the changes going on in my life. first of all, it's my senior year of college, i'm on the verge of entering adulthood & confronting a brand new set of challenges & decisions including what i'm gonna do for the rest of my life... that's TV-worthy enough already. another change would be me moving out of my apartment and moving into a new place with Liwanag people. if that's not good enough for a TV show then i don't know what is. it's my year of independence! TIME TO LIVE IT UP! i can already imagine the opening credits with me walking on the streets of irvine giving dumo a high five LOL jk but not really. possible theme songs... "brave"- idina mendel if it was a tv drama... or "just fine"- mary j blige JUST BECAUSE I LOVE THAT SONG... "extraordinary"- mandy moore (self explanatory) "there's hope"- india arie... it's a good song...or "put your records on"- corinne bailey rae... man so many possibilities... too bad it's not gonna happen... it could be a filipino version of The Hills... with no drama... we should just call the show... "SHAWSHANK: THE NEXT GENERATION"... get it? like Degrassi: the next generation? hahaha.

you know you'd watch it.

anyway, i welcome next year's adventures with open arms. it's gonna be AWESOME...

STAY TUNED.

p.s. i've settled on "just fine" as my theme song... i loooooooove that song. that's all. hahah.

What time is it? / Summertime / It's our vacation / What time is it? / Party time / That's right, say it loud / What time is it? / The time of our lives / Anticipation / What time is it? Summertime / School's out, scream and shout!

I'M DONE with my junior year!!!!! this was probably the fastest year ever but then again, i'm pretty sure next year is gonna go by quickly too. i feel... relieved & as much as i'd love to be bored right now, i can't because there's a lot to do (see previous entry).

anyway, ahhhhhhhhh!!! it's over.

to be continued...

my last final of my junior year tomorrow!!!!!


what time is it?
SUMMER TIME! ... almost


edit@7:39pm...
because i don't want to study. sorry to the CSL crew for being MIA from the student center this week. i've just discovered that i can actually study at my own apartment lately. it's peaceful & quiet and mainly, i don't have to walk all the way to the student center. i know i'm missing out though. what sucks about finishing early is that i can't study with the CSL crew. booooo but best part of all of this is that i'm done tomorrow! wooooo!

and after tomorrow, i need to start searching... for a job, internship, volunteering, research, basically ANYTHING... i'm open to anything because i have nothing to do this summer besides Liwanag meetings & occasional trips home. if i don't find anything to do, i'm gonna be in LA for the rest of the summer... not that it's a bad thing but i'd hate to waste my summer being unproductive. that's lame. so if you know of something, let me know please. thanks.

i have yet to do my end of the year reflection. i'm uninspired. i've been uninspired lately. i'm so preoccupied with school & the future that i don't think i have anything enlightening to say other than...

I'M REALLY HOPING FOR AN EPIPHANY NEXT YEAR!!!!! ..i hope He gives me an idea of what i want to do for the rest of my life because i don't want to just be sitting here waiting around for life to happen. i gotta make it happen.

anyway, finals call.

peace out.

prayers always.

one of my biggest pet peeves ever is ...feeling left out
& i hope i never make anyone feel that way.

the end.

but i'm not. i'm blogging. again.

finals week! time for another installment of finals week tips hahaha.

finals week tip # ??: eat.

i didn't study earlier because i had lunch with joe and brenton. good times. good food. good company.

anyway, i tried on brenton's cap and gown and it was big on me but man, i'm excited to graduate... NEXT YEAR. i didn't get to wear a cap and gown for my h.s. graduation but i'm really excited for the pink (ok SALMON) 09 tassle. but i have a whole year left. i'm "finna" make the best of it.


study!


peace.

p.s. happy 21st birthday joey :)

i should be heading out to the PASS banquet but i still find myself lingering over the "surreal-ness" of last night (if that's even a word). i'm in disbelief because i know that last night happened but it doesn't feel like it did.

it seemed like it was all a dream and that when i opened my eyes i would be wearing my bright green sweater eagerly and anxiously looking up at angie who was telling the group to conglomerate in the center of the room. i can still see rica wearing her pink mama Mary shirt, thinking to myself, do they actually sell those?! and i can still remember finding comfort in seeing Meechy's and Cressa's familiar faces. that ONE night brought me here and it's so SURREAL being up in the front. never did i imagine that i would ever be where i am today and be who i am today.

i couldn't think of the words to say during affirmations. the best i could come up with was a "thank you" to the freshmen and 08ers alike. i'm in a weird place right now. it's weird to me but everyone around me seems to be accepting the transition with ease. "you can do it," they say ...and the difference between the anna of last year and the anna today is that i actually am beginning to believe that i can.

i'm GENUINELY excited.

if this past saturday was any indication of things to come, next year is gonna be just as awesome as this year, if not more.

ray, bellamay, & kim... thank YOU! :)

thank You for this opportunity.

WOW.

more later. time to walk it out.. to the Student Center.

<3

amen.